Confusion .....
Sometimes, there are moments in a relationship when one feels that whatever you say or do it's not going to be right . My cleo and I, through force of circumstances have spent a good few weeks struggling against the tide of real life issues (long work hours, finances, and all manner of otehr things) to the point where we have lost a lot of continuity in the M/s side of our lives.
Within the Master and slave roles there are things which are accepted, and which should happen as a matter of course: for example, a decision to make a change, albeit a small one, to our community website, which by rights should have been sanctioned by Me before it happened. This turned out not to be the case. When I found out this had happened, and even allowing for the fact that I agreed with the reasons as to why it was done, I made the point to cleo, and was ready to use that moment to try and bring our M/s back into focus a bit. She argued with me, saying that my option to discipline was inconsistent. Yes perhaps it was, but if I am not going to do that, then why bother at all? Of late, the most consistent thing we have had, is the lack of opportunity to get some M/s in our lives. So if we don't grasp the opportunity, how are we to get it back at all? That answer I am not sure about, but I have to say i am confused. I do not like being at odds with my slave, especially over such things as this, but at this moment we seem to not see eye to eye on this.
I should discipline her, and she should submit to that, but I want her to submit willingly, however I know in this case it will be grudgingly, which for me, makes the whole exercise rather pointless.
We will of course resolve it, through discussion as we always do, but at this moment I am more confused than anything. My physical absence from our relationship for long periods due to work may well be some of the cause, but at the same time, we should both accept this as an evil we have to endure. Unlike many Dominants I do worry about what my slave feels, and how she will react to things. Tonight was uncharacteristic of her, in my view, and that makes me question myself.
Anyway, enough for now, while I ponder my actions, and I will write about those next time, perhaps
Within the Master and slave roles there are things which are accepted, and which should happen as a matter of course: for example, a decision to make a change, albeit a small one, to our community website, which by rights should have been sanctioned by Me before it happened. This turned out not to be the case. When I found out this had happened, and even allowing for the fact that I agreed with the reasons as to why it was done, I made the point to cleo, and was ready to use that moment to try and bring our M/s back into focus a bit. She argued with me, saying that my option to discipline was inconsistent. Yes perhaps it was, but if I am not going to do that, then why bother at all? Of late, the most consistent thing we have had, is the lack of opportunity to get some M/s in our lives. So if we don't grasp the opportunity, how are we to get it back at all? That answer I am not sure about, but I have to say i am confused. I do not like being at odds with my slave, especially over such things as this, but at this moment we seem to not see eye to eye on this.
I should discipline her, and she should submit to that, but I want her to submit willingly, however I know in this case it will be grudgingly, which for me, makes the whole exercise rather pointless.
We will of course resolve it, through discussion as we always do, but at this moment I am more confused than anything. My physical absence from our relationship for long periods due to work may well be some of the cause, but at the same time, we should both accept this as an evil we have to endure. Unlike many Dominants I do worry about what my slave feels, and how she will react to things. Tonight was uncharacteristic of her, in my view, and that makes me question myself.
Anyway, enough for now, while I ponder my actions, and I will write about those next time, perhaps
posted by Paul Knox at
2:18:00 am
1 Comments:
my Master, never would i or will i submit grudgingly. That is not how my submission to you works.My submission is not on a whim, it is all emcompassing, it is what makes me who i am, Your slave and as such, my submission does not come with any tags attached. If you feel i need to be corrected on a matter, then as my Master, i give you that consent, always and with that consent, come my submission, willingly.
If you feel that the time or the circumstances are right for some sort of discipline then i will bend and submit to that because it is the very core of what we do within our Ms/. You are my Master, always, i am your slave and your word is final.
i hope, this morning, you give me the opportunity to prove that to you Sir.
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