Monday, January 24, 2005

What a difference a day makes.

I normally use this space to write about (mostly) D/s related things: topics, ideas, and similar which may have caught my eye. However tonight it's a little more personal. Since changing my job last August I have been working extremely long hours, and added to which I have a two hour plus journey each way to and from work. My shift in the office is 12 hours and so my working day is some 17 hours before I sleep! Added to that i have been doing 5 days on, then three off. The five days is totally exhausting, and the three off doesn't really give enough time to recover.

Well, as of last week, we have a new guy in the office and I have finally got to get back onto 4 days on, 4 days off. Consequently one less day at work, and one extra off is sheer bliss! Already I feel the benefit of this, in that i am not tired all through my days off. Today is my third day off and i feel totally refreshed, and have another off before I go back on Wednesday.

So what does all this mean? Well, for the last couple of months we (cleo and I) have rather lost our way within our M/s (not for the first time) but with the extra time at home, and with a better frame of mind created by not being so tired I feel we can get back on track.

We sat down this weekend and again put in place some very simple rules within which we should be able to better operate our M/s, and as such I feel we are better set to move forward, with a joint agreement over certain things which will be good for us both. We have had to do this before, but I am sure any relationship has its high and low points where seeing eye to eye is not always possible. In this case it was not any disagreement as such, just force of circumstance, and the inability to dedicate enough time to each other. That has now been resolved, and I am pleased for both of us.

Any relationship is about compromise, but I also believe that we have to find ways to achieve our ambitions, and even though they may not always happen right away, being of one mind is one way to ensure that both are heading in the same direction. This can only come through good communication and understanding. For my part, I am so happy that i have my cleo because in her I have a focus, a brilliant shining light to show me the way. I know, i know, Doms are supposed to be the guides and all that! Well sometimes a Dom too can get off track. cleo is my guide too, and while she will never admit it, without her i would be nothing.

For that I will be eternally grateful.

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